“With fear and great joy.”
That sounds like an odd combination
of emotions to me, but, according to Matthew, that’s how the women leave Jesus’
empty tomb on the morning of that first Easter. He’s the only one of the four
Gospel writers who records the women’s emotional state in this way, slipping it
in there with all the drama and theater of the resurrection as if we wouldn’t
notice. But we notice, and we think it sounds a little strange: “So they left the tomb quickly with fear and great joy, and ran to tell his
disciples.” It sounds like such a contradiction, an oxymoron. Who feels
fear and great joy at the same time? It
seems like one would trump the other.
The fear, at least in part,
is easy to understand, especially given all that’s going on in the background. First,
there’s the earthquake—not all that strange given the part of the world this
happens in, and according to Matthew, there had been one on the previous Friday
on the afternoon of Jesus’ death. Maybe this is an aftershock, but frightening
nonetheless. Then there is this angel—shining as if he were made of lightning—seen
in the very act of rolling the giant stone away. We also learn right off the
bat that the very people paid to be threatening, the very people hired to
strike fear in the heart of anyone who would tamper with this crucified man’s
tomb, were already so terrified they had apparently fainted. It must have been
quite a fearsome scene, and when you add to it the general panic that occurs
any time there is a missing body and that it was still dark because the sun
wasn’t up—yeah, it’s not hard to imagine that even after they hear the perplexing
news that the crucified man was actually risen that the women would still be a
little afraid.
But then how does the joy fit
in? And we’re not talking about just a small little seed of joy that may grow into something
great, but full-blown great joy. By point
of reference, there is only one other time in all of Matthew’s gospel when
someone experiences “great joy.” It’s what the wise men experience when the
star they are following finally stops over the place where they find Jesus. They’ve
been traveling from the east for who knows how long and they are so excited
that that they are finally going to get to see him. That’s what Mary Magdalene
and the other Mary are feeling. Do they know they’re going to be seeing Jesus
after their search, too?
The Two Marys watch the Tomb of Jesus (James J. Tissot, 1884) |
How then can these two
feelings go together? As I pondered this question this week, I invited the
homebound members I was visiting to reflect on that with me. Well, as it turns
out, fear and great joy go together far more often than I had originally
considered. More than one person I asked said that surgery often brought the
same mix of emotions: fear about the procedure itself and the anesthesia and whether
the recovery would be difficult—but great joy that a cataract could be removed or
a broken hip could be fixed.
Together we also reflected on
the feelings surrounding the birth of a child. Come to think of it…for sure, I
was filled with great joy at the birth of my first child. I was overjoyed that
the delivery had gone well, that both baby and mother were healthy, but when it
dawned on me that they were actually at some point going to send us home with
something I hadn’t the foggiest idea I could keep alive, I looked at the
discharge nurse and thought to myself, “We really have to leave here with this
thing, don’t we?” That was fear, my friends. Great joy mixed with lots of fear.
What about you? When was the
last time you felt fear and great joy simultaneously, as illogical as it sounds?
What about this morning? Do we still respond that way today as we greet this
news of Easter? Upon closer inspection, there’s something very honest about
these women’s reactions that gives great insight to the meaning of Jesus’
resurrection. Maybe a complete experience with this good news is a little akin
to walking out of a hospital with a newborn baby, or undergoing a surgical
procedure that gives you a new lease on life.
The great joy is probably the
part we know we’re strong on. After all, we don’t have scary earthquakes or
guards marching around this morning in intimidating fashion. Unless you’re
afraid of people marching around with hand bells, you’re probably OK this
morning. The hymns, the lilies, and the Scripture readings are all imbued with
joy that the one who was crucified is now risen. God has conquered death. God’s
new creation of life without sin has begun and, like that giant stone, will
never be rolled back. Our joy is palpable—our long journey from the east is over—but
what about the fear, especially if there are no earthquakes or strange, glowing
angels to frighten us?
In short, it’s because we
don’t have the foggiest idea how we’ll keep this alive, do we? At some point
Easter moves away from the shock and excitement of the empty tomb to the
reality of entering into the world, of carrying this new creation into a world
that still thinks it can kill it. At some point—maybe even as quickly as Mary
and Mary leave the scene of the resurrection—we realize the good news of God’s
victory over sin and death compels us to live in the world quite differently than
before. At some point our faith makes us move forward, seeing the possibilities
of forgiveness, cherishing the power of love, and seizing the hope of a God who
is alive in all circumstances, even the most desperate.
One pastor this week on his blog suggests that the fear surrounding our faith has less to do these days
with our ability or inability to put love and hope into action than it does
with how we feel we might be perceived by others. While we may feel joy and
excitement about the hymns and music this morning, we are also afraid, he says,
that believing in the things of Easter in today’s world will cost us too much
and make us seem, “laughable, simple-minded, shallow, foolish, absurdly unmodern.”[1] Dressing
up and coming to worship to hear the hand bells, the forgiveness of sins and
the triumph over death is one thing, declaring to the world that God has saved
its life and that recovery is going to be OK is another thing altogether.
That is frightening. It is
frightening even as it is exhilarating, because there is no guarantee that
others will immediately recognize our new life since it is, as the writer to
the Colossians says, hidden with Christ in God.
Thankfully, though, Jesus is
risen, which means he is still alive and active on the road of re-entry and
will greet us there, encouraging us on our way. Just as soon as the women leave
the tomb, they bump into Jesus himself, even before they’ve returned to Galilee.
That is, they are comforted by Jesus’ presence as they depart even before they
are told they can expect it. Do you harbor some fear about what the news of
this day means, fear about how you might tell others and how you’ll be
received? Then remember that the risen Christ himself is apt to surprise you, maybe
even before you’ve left the parking on the way out, and certainly before you
have the chance to speak about it to anyone.
Just a few weeks ago we
received a solicitation phone call in the church office. We receive a
half-dozen or so each week. This one was offering us some kind of help—it
wasn’t really clear—in getting our new business moving. “New business moving.” I
know that’s what they said. Best I could figure they had received some kind of
notification through internet data that there’d been a recent change here at our
congregation and I guess they mistakenly recognized me as the leader of some
new venture. While the move between offices definitely took a little longer
than we had hoped—embarrassingly so—I never thought someone would actually call
me about it. So I assured them, nope…no new business here, no new move anyone
needs to worry about.
Think again, pastor. Think
again. The scary and joyful news of Easter suggests otherwise. This gathering—this
pronouncement—is always a new movement, a venture that the all of creation is
waiting on, a surprising move that saves us all. Jesus will surprise us on the
road. As Mary and the other Mary show us, discharge nurses of the resurrection…Yes,
we really do have to leave here with this thing, don’t we!
Alleluia! Christ is Risen!
The Reverend Phillip W. Martin, Jr.
it was a thought provoking sermon...as one who lives a lot "in fear" (meaning this is my "cross to bear" I worry , worry. worry...) I hadn't thought much about - if ever that fear an joy can exist together... it gave me hope. I will attempt to embrace fear as a new opportunity to be "hopeful" ....thanks.
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